One thing I’ve noticed about myself is that I have an urge to be productive. It doesn’t matter if it’s work, at home or in my work out-routine. Except for when I say I’ll have a rest day, I need to be productive in some of the above areas. I do stuff full heartedly and 110%. Even rest days. If I say I’m gonna rest I can lay in bed all day watching shows, meditating and eat a bunch of candy. And I mean that literally. All day.
And that’s OK because most days I usually don’t. In the majority of my time I am being productive and get alot of things done. It’s like I cannot rest by the end of the day if I’m not. Like today.. I got all of the things done at work that were on my to do-list – and none extra (which is not unusual). I got home quite early and figured all of my favourite food for the moment was finished. So I went to the store and cooked 12 meals of my two favourite dishes 😂 felt good. Haha.
And so now I can fall asleep feeling good about myself. I haven’t decided if it’s a good or a bad thing yet. Almost like an addiction. But hey, I think I compensate it with my rest days (and vactions!). I listen to my body when I need a day off and I take it with pride. Two if I have to. Only thing that can (and have occured a bit too often these last months) cause somewhat of a stress-chaos is when I literally cannot make time for my rest days because of other arrangements/work/whatever. But I’ve done just fine until now. And I respond with planning for an entire resting-weekend instead 😉
I just need to remind myself to check in with my habits: are they giving me energy or slowly draining me out? I go for the first one by now. At least now when I’m finally (!) On the right side of the surface.