Christmas contemplating

Am so very much looking forward the year to come. 2018.

It has a special ring to it.

The stars are changing and the energies are finally changing into a much more lighted version since 2012 for me… these past years have been difficult and lifechanging. But also glorious of course. But the inner work and feelings and events in my life have been challenging. The least to say. Career has been going absolutly great. Am so very thankful and grateful for being where I am today. I absolutely love my job and where I am right now. But privatly, in my romance life and personal relationships, have been going… not so grate. Don’t get me wrong here, I am blessed with close and dear friends and family whom I love deeply but there have been so many losses. Betrayals. Heart breaks….. romantically and in family and friendships. I’ve lost people I even today can miss. The silverlining in it all lies in the learnings and personal growth. But that too takes energy. Like I am weiry of the struggle. The fighting. Not in the sense of arguing but in the sense of being in the demanding fighting to keep the balance and peace and focus on the lessons kind-of-struggle. So am very much looking forward to 2018.

I am such a sucker for new year resolutions and goals. And this year I will focus a lot of my health and how I am living my life and spending my time. Do those things which I am yearning for when I lay in bed at night. Those things I truly resonate with, but for some reason haven’t been doing at all or not heartfeltly. This will be my year. I can feel it. The winds are changing. Lets bring it!!!

My top 9 photos in instagram 2017. What a year. Am so proud and humble about it all.

Hello again

Hehe..last post was about being productive. Can’t say I’ve been that here lately?

Yeah. Inspiration comes and goes. I think I might be on a…….. comeback now? Setback? We’ll see. 

Productive

One thing I’ve noticed about myself is that I have an urge to be productive. It doesn’t matter if it’s work, at home or in my work out-routine. Except for when I say I’ll have a rest day, I need to be productive in some of the above areas. I do stuff full heartedly and 110%. Even rest days. If I say I’m gonna rest I can lay in bed all day watching shows, meditating and eat a bunch of candy. And I mean that literally. All day.

And that’s OK because most days I usually don’t. In the majority of my time I am being productive and get alot of things done. It’s like I cannot rest by the end of the day if I’m not. Like today.. I got all of the things done at work that were on my to do-list – and none extra (which is not unusual). I got home quite early and figured all of my favourite food for the moment was finished. So I went to the store and cooked 12 meals of my two favourite dishes 😂 felt good. Haha.

And so now I can fall asleep feeling good about myself. I haven’t decided if it’s a good or a bad thing yet. Almost like an addiction. But hey, I think I compensate it with my rest days (and vactions!). I listen to my body when I need a day off and I take it with pride. Two if I have to. Only thing that can (and have occured a bit too often these last months) cause somewhat of a stress-chaos is when I literally cannot make time for my rest days because of other arrangements/work/whatever. But I’ve done just fine until now. And I respond with planning for an entire resting-weekend instead 😉

I just need to remind myself to check in with my habits: are they giving me energy or slowly draining me out? I go for the first one by now. At least now when I’m finally (!) On the right side of the surface. 

Saturday with my soulsister 💖

This weekend I had a lovely time with one of my closest friends, Mia 💖 We met after my appointment with the naprapath and went home to my place and had some lunch. Then we headed in to the city to catch some sun. Ended up at a café outside in Old Town. After that we just walked and talked. Am so grateful for spending time with her (she usually lives in Gothenburg but her bf lives here in Stockholm). 

Life 

Life is meant to be lived fully – and openly – like an adventure, where you explore your own self

Ask yourself: are your habits slowly draining your energy, or do they give you an apetite for life? There is no wrong in being a “habit-person”, but make sure to ask yourself this question from time to time.

Life is an indefinate serie of present moments where you choose what you want to experience. Trust your insticts, follow your heart.