My arm

Yesterday I started the day with sleeping in 😍 Then I had an appointment with Kjertsi, a naprapath I’ve started seeing for my terrible pain in my left shoulder. It has gone so far that I wake up in the middle of the night in pain if I turn and trying to sleep on the left side. And can’t do all the exercises I’d like during workout etc. Anyways, I was there last Sunday the first time and I have bursitis 😣 Am not suprised since I have an injury in my left underarm. 
When I was eight and broke both bones in it while driving my motorcross, a urologist (seriously who does that to a child?!) at the hospital put back the bones wrongly. My arm was lying wrong at the table, so he twisted my arm! He put back the wrong bone to the wrong piece. So it did not heal correctly (ofcourse) and they broke it up during surgury twice (!) before my mom find out what happened and stopped the third one and took me to another, bigger, hospital where they had to put in a 10 cm piece of titanium in order for it to heal at all… and then after a few months or so (can’t remember) they took it out. So my arm isn’t that pretty. Quite funny looking. Anyways, since my arm is twisted all stress and overloading makes my muscles really tense on the left sife of my neck, back and shoulders. As well as the right side to compensate. Am just happy it took these many years before I had more “serious” problems. 

Long story but back to the treatment. She is really really good and knows what she is doing. And I feel an relief already and have to go visit her a few times but it feels good! And safe. Yesterday I was so relaxed I almost fell asleep. I mean it hurts, but I go into such a deep meditation to cope haha. Or like she said yesterday “its like you go into trans or something, so it’s quite easy to treat you because you are really receptive”. Haha. Yep. That’s exactly what I do πŸ˜‚

This is me being relaxed… can’t get the arm flat without lifting the handπŸ™ˆ

And this is my 10 cm badass scarπŸ‘ŠπŸ’–

Friday I’m in love

Normally I don’t work Fridays. Or… that’s the way it suppose to be in my main work. But now I also have the other temporary job in the other organization, plus, I think I prefer working 6,5 hours per day for 5 days instead of working 4 full days in my main job anyways. And then just spread out those other hours on all days in the other job.

Either way, today is amazing. I’ve been working over time the whole week, been following my schedule for the week and guess what?! I only have a short short day today so I started this Friday with sleeping in 😍 In a couple of hours I have a PT-session (and my soreness has JUST disappeared from Mondays’ session πŸ˜‚) and after that I’ll stop by the office before having a fika with Hanna. Yaay! 

Dreams

I’ve always had weird dreams. And nightmares are more common than not. When I was little or even a teenager it was not unusual that I shouted right out, in the middle of the night while I was sleeping. Then and there I was mostly angry in my dreams (aside from my twisted nightmares which are just scaryπŸ˜‚)… I remember that I often was angry – no furious – with my family, my mother. 

Now… a few years later something has changed. Nowadays when I wake up from – or no, while – I am shouting, I am mostly angry with small stuff. Like this morning when I woke up while yelling “but f*ck what expensive it is!!!!”. I was dreaming that I went to my favourite cafΓ©, and they charged 95 SEK for the top of the sandwich… haha. 

Another weird thing is that I have stopped screaming so much (even though it occassionally happens), the past years its quite normal for me to wake up by laughing. Imagine that. Wake up in happiness. πŸ’–