This one has been a regular song in my playlist for a couple of years. Love it! Just feel how your bum wants to move when listening 😍
… I feel quite lonely tonight. You know, having one of those nights where you need to sleep but aren’t really tired.
Have had an amazing weekend with lots of time spended with one of my closest friends, Mia. 💖 As well as time to reload, clean, and do the laundry. Not so fun while doing it but feels good afterwards.
Missing my friends in my hometown and also the ones here. But tonight I am mostly missing someone. I am not a single-type-of-person at all but refuse to settle for less than I deserve. And the older I get the more I realize how hard it is to find someone? Not that I am looking (haha maybe that’s the problem here) but damn… we’re all humans and need the closeness from another being from time to time. Someone to hold and be held by. Right now I wish someone else lied here in bed with me whom I could snuggle into. Breathe with. Someone other than my dog! Haha. Titzi I love you but you’re always the little spoon. I want to be little too.
Yesterday I started the day with sleeping in 😍 Then I had an appointment with Kjertsi, a naprapath I’ve started seeing for my terrible pain in my left shoulder. It has gone so far that I wake up in the middle of the night in pain if I turn and trying to sleep on the left side. And can’t do all the exercises I’d like during workout etc. Anyways, I was there last Sunday the first time and I have bursitis 😣 Am not suprised since I have an injury in my left underarm.
When I was eight and broke both bones in it while driving my motorcross, a urologist (seriously who does that to a child?!) at the hospital put back the bones wrongly. My arm was lying wrong at the table, so he twisted my arm! He put back the wrong bone to the wrong piece. So it did not heal correctly (ofcourse) and they broke it up during surgury twice (!) before my mom find out what happened and stopped the third one and took me to another, bigger, hospital where they had to put in a 10 cm piece of titanium in order for it to heal at all… and then after a few months or so (can’t remember) they took it out. So my arm isn’t that pretty. Quite funny looking. Anyways, since my arm is twisted all stress and overloading makes my muscles really tense on the left sife of my neck, back and shoulders. As well as the right side to compensate. Am just happy it took these many years before I had more “serious” problems.
Long story but back to the treatment. She is really really good and knows what she is doing. And I feel an relief already and have to go visit her a few times but it feels good! And safe. Yesterday I was so relaxed I almost fell asleep. I mean it hurts, but I go into such a deep meditation to cope haha. Or like she said yesterday “its like you go into trans or something, so it’s quite easy to treat you because you are really receptive”. Haha. Yep. That’s exactly what I do 😂
This is me being relaxed… can’t get the arm flat without lifting the hand🙈
And this is my 10 cm badass scar👊💖
I BELIEVE IN USING SONGS TO SAY THINGS ♪
This is so true… I’ve always used songs and music to express things. To work through hard feelings. Or slowing down. Centering myself. Or just listen to the rhytm, not caring about the lyrics, and just dance to the beat.
I believe half of my brain consists of just lyrics 😂 I always learn the lyrics of each song I like. And then it stays there. Forever and ever. Haha.